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Well,
her book, anyway. The
Kunitz volume
left
lying on a bench, the pages
a
bit puffy by morning, flushed with dew,
riffled
by sea breeze, scratchy with sand
--the
paperback with the 1930's photo
with
her in spangled caftan, the back cover
calling
her "star of the St. Petersburg circle
of
Pasternak, Mandelstam, and Blok,
surviving
the Revolution and two World Wars."
So
she'd been through worse...
the
months outside Lefortovo prison
waiting
for a son who was already dead, watching
women
stagger and reel with news of executions,
one
mother asking, "Can you write about this?"
"Yes,"
Akhmatova answered.
If
music lured her off the sandy bench
to
the clubs where men were kissing
that
wouldn't have bothered her much
nor
the vamps shashaying in leather.
Decadence
amid art deco fit nicely
with
her black dress, chopped hair, Chanel cap.
What
killed her was the talk, the empty eyes,
which
made her long for the one person in ten thousand
who
could say her name in Russian,
who
could take her home, giving her a place
between
Auden and Apollinaire
to
whom she could describe her night's excursion
amid
the loud hilarities, the trivial hungers
at
the end of the American century.
From "Locusts at the edge of
Summer," nominated for a National Book Award. John Balaban
spent the years during the Vietnam War recording that country's
folk songs and poetry.
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